Dear Dad,

I dont know if you will ever get this, and i dont know if well ever meet again, but i want to start off saying i love you. I dont remember why i cant see you.. it was so long ago.. but i love you, and i miss you. I miss the times when we would just hang out. I loved spending my weekends with you. All the great memories i have with you.. i love every influence you had on me.

I think youd like the person ive become. Here's to wishing you were still here. I really want you to meet someone. Her names morghanne. I think you'd really like her. same musical tastes man =] Ive known her for a while. -sigh- but i kinnof screwed things up with her. i know its something you wouldnt be proud of me for. Im not even proud of it. there isnt a second that i regret what i did.. that i wish we were still together.

Im a poet now. Dad, if you really are reading this, go read my gallery. i think youd like it. Im also learning how to play the bass and guitar just like you, dad. i think youd be very proud of the son i have become. well.. except for that one part :/ dad, i could really use your advice right now.

Dad.. i need you. I really miss you. when are you going to come back? come back soon.. please? im in the same place where ive always been. Im actually going to your old highschool- im going to Buffalo Grove. and Mrs. Ludwig remembered you! she was like "dale ok.. tell me about your parents. lets start with their names." and when i told her, she was like "ohmygosh! youre [insertdadsnamehere]'s son?" and i was like... uhmm.. yeah.. haha =]

Moms been saying that i look a lot like you. and acting like you. haha youll always be my role model. if theres one person i wanna be like, it would be you. youre my inspiration for everything. i know you love me.. Mum says that my laugh is just like yours, and my hair.. how it never wants to stay straight =] also, i need to take like 3 showers a day now. maybe this runs in the family? haha =]

I might look a little different than you remember. Im a little bigger, and ive got a certain sense of style, man. I have your shirts- the grateful dead one, and the white one, with all the words on it. i love the Dead. and the doors.. the byrds.. we have to talk about music someday. you will be amazed at the genres i like. you know.. i really envy you for one thing.. you got the black hair. haha =]

Happy Father's Day Dad. i wish you were so we could enjoy it, but.. my love still goes out to you, wherever you are right now. Hey, remember when i was little? when we use to play Final Fantasy VII together? that is my favourite memory i have of us. my absolute favourite. i dont really remember a lot of things, when i spent time with you, but i remember us bonding and talking a lot. you remember when we went to southern illinois to visit our family? that was a lot of fun =] i want to do that with you sometime again. at least one more time.

i will say, i have a couple of memories. like when we were at aunt eva's. =] when we were at randy's. i remember some stuff. i loved every second i spent with you. i wish i could relive it. i remember you playing the guitar. you were playing it at christmas one year at randy's. i remember trying to jam out.. epic fail haha =] oH! i have composed one song so far- for bass and guitar. trying to work out a drum beat right now. i think we both know who its gonna be a bout, huh?

I remember playing kingdom hearts with you.. seeing you smile at me when i did something right. staring at your face, being so thankful you were my dad. i dont want someone else to be my dad. i dont think anyone else could ever be good enough. i loved playing basketball with you. do you remember that? do you remember being at mammy's old apartment, and riding on uncle rons bike? do you remember when i was really little, and cut myself on the razor, and i was crying, and almost passed out when i saw the blodd? do you remember when we all went trick or treating- you, me, jesse, randy, and jacob- and i lost my coat? i love every memory i have with you. i am so thankful for them.

Hey. Kayla and i have been hanging out. weve been there for each other. haha she looks just like mom.. its kinnof scary. shes got more of the native american-ness in her though. and i just look like.. well.. me =] ive got to say, im kinnof a fan =] i remember how you used to look. long wavy hair, sometimes put up in a ponytail, with your blue hat, with the peace symbol on front. i remember it =]

-sigh-

so.. i really want to see you again. i miss you soooo much. i wanna tell you everything thats happening to me. do you think you could ever come back? or.. do i have to miss you forever? -sigh- well, i hope you get this, dad. You mean most everything to me. will you come back.. for me? think you can promise it? Id love to see your face again.

I love you.

Your son,
~Dale

P.S. I wrote you a letter :]